Well I have hit that point in the revision process where my MS and I are at a standstill, just staring at each other, waiting on the other to make a move.
Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE my characters and their stories, but making sure the writing is doing them all justice is – in one word – REALLYEFFINGDIFFICULT.
As a reader, the writing can either make or break a story for me, depending on the issue. Unimaginative writing can turn a brilliant character into a flat one or a character’s emotional climax into a plot point, neither creates a story that will stick around with you years after you’ve read it. I know the stories that I’ve hung onto over the years and if one of my stories can do that for someone else, I will feel like I’ve succeeded.
But here’s the reality of it all, even if I am never published, if I never receive representation, I don’t think I’ll ever stop writing. Sure, it would be fantastic if all this hard work and dedication paid off, but at the end of the day, I’m writing for me. I have done enough research on the industry to know that the odds of getting a 5-book deal (because that’s the length of the series I’m working on is – sorry possible future agent [if I’m lucky]) is EXTREMELY unlikely.
Does that mean I’m going to give up? NOOOOOOPE!
Writing fiction makes me happy. Getting to tell the stories of the 6 heroines in my series make me happy. Getting to play with all my favorite elements of the shows/books/movies I grew up on and love makes me happy.
Sure, the process is daunting and frustrating and sometimes disheartening. But I love what I do and if you love the story you’re writing, so should you!
Happy Writing, Everybody!
*On a separate note, me being a realist hardly means that I am not going to query. Once this new version of the MS is done, you better believe I’m going to start querying and submitting. ha ha. I’m just super aware of the challenges ahead. Here’s to hoping the characters/plots/world speak for themselves!