Moving Forward Without Apology

Wow. It’s been a while, huh? 

As much as I want to apologize for my absence, I’m not going to. I’ve spent most of my life apologizing: for sneezing, for laughing too loud, for walking through a door ahead of someone, or even for the sound of my footsteps. 

This instinct isn’t uncommon, especially for women, but I’m realizing the internal implications of saying sorry means that I did something wrong. How is sneezing wrong? It’s a normal bodily function. Much like self-care has needed to become a normal practice for me, which is why I’m not going to apologize for my lack of posts. 

And though I do intend for this to still be a writing blog, it’s first and foremost mine, and apparently, self-discovery is as much a part of my writing journey as is learning how to avoid passive voice. 

In the time I’ve spent away from my blog, here are some of the more prominent pieces of my journey:

  1. I’m not writing YA anymore. My writing voice and the stories I’m drawn to just aren’t quite YA, and that’s okay.
  2. I love weightlifting. Picking weightlifting back up has probably been one of the best things I’ve ever done for myself. It’s an investment that has an almost immediate payoff in regards to strength gains. 
  3. I’m finally feeling like myself again. And this has a little to do with me reclaiming my body with #2, but mostly, I’ve stopped demonizing my mental health. The Sioux Falls VA has done an awesome job at finding a medication combination that works really well for me and their therapy has helped give me tools to reclaim my joy. 
  4. Finding community. None of the above would be possible without a support system. The friends I’ve found through writing and theatre have given me a place to stand and build self-worth on. 

All of this to say, the blog will be changing a little. Don’t worry, I’ll still rant about writerly things, but I also want to celebrate the things that make writing possible for me. 

Thanks for sticking with me!
– Bree

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